Kurt Cobain

Remembering Kurt

Kurt

Nest of Salt

Dur­ing another exchange of emails I was reminded of another mys­te­ri­ous ‘hook’ that Kurt used in one of the songs.  The ‘hook’ came from a con­ver­sa­tion about the mem­ory loss.  Kurt was ask­ing me what I was going to do in the future to ‘reclaim’ my hid­den mem­o­ries.  I used the metaphor that it was like stick­ing my head into a ‘freezer.’  I told him it was like the meat (deep mys­ti­cal themes) was too much for my imma­ture diges­tion.   So, to me, it was like I was putting ‘pork chops’ into a freezer bag and stor­ing it away in a deep freeze to thaw out and use at a later time.

Salt trucks dump­ing salt from the ‘nest’ where it was stored.

I had spo­ken to other friends in the past and they had first hand knowl­edge and expe­ri­ence how fast and deep I could bury and ‘freeze’ a mem­ory in the ‘deep freeze’ of the uncon­scious mind.  I was con­stantly ‘for­get­ting’ events we had par­tic­i­pat­ing in a week prior with my friends.  One of my friends worked for the City Street Depart­ment.  He was part of the crew who would be out shov­ing and spread­ing ‘salt’ on the roads dur­ing the cold sea­son when ice and snow formed on the road.  I made a joke about find­ing a shovel and hit­ting a mound of salt.   My friend told me,

“Your going to need more than a mound of salt.  Your going to need a whole nest of salt.”

I was con­fused by the ‘nest of salt’ ref­er­ence.  My mind went to a hor­nets nest or bee hive and I thought of ‘salt bee’s’ fly­ing off to the ocean and hum­ming back with a ‘grain of salt’ at a time to fill up a whole nest of salt.  My friend laughed and said that was what him and his co-workers were and that is what he wanted his bosses to think when they said ‘nest of salt.’  He told me it was a slang term him and his co-workers had came up with.  They would be out in the field spread­ing the ‘salt’ on streets when the weather got bad try­ing to stay a jump ahead of the ‘icing’ process on the city streets.  When a truck ran empty of salt — they would call in on the radio that they were return­ing to the ‘nest’ for another load.  Some how, in the radio jar­gon that got short­ened down to ‘code’ it became stan­dard for them to use ‘nest of salt’ in ref­er­ence to return­ing from the field back to ‘home base’ for another load.  The work­ers at the ‘base’ had to pre­pare another load for the truck upon it’s return.

The Salt March, also known as the Salt Satya­graha began with the Dandi March on March 12, 1930, and was an impor­tant part of the Indian inde­pen­dence movement.

By the time I had spoke to Kurt about it, I had seen the movie Gandhi where he starts a rev­o­lu­tion with a ‘mound of salt.’  To me, it was a spir­i­tual metaphor.  My hid­den mem­o­ries rep­re­sented ‘hid­den knowl­edge’ given to me by the ‘hand of the divine.’  Kurt and I had spo­ken about Plato’s assess­ment that ‘true knowl­edge’ was not some­thing your learned as much as it was some­thing your ‘recalled’ from the spirit.

Pla­tonic epis­te­mol­ogy holds that knowl­edge is innate, so that learn­ing is the devel­op­ment of ideas buried deep in the soul, often under the midwife-like guid­ance of an inter­roga­tor. In sev­eral dia­logues by Plato, Socrates presents the view that each soul existed before birth with the Form of the Good and a per­fect knowl­edge of every­thing. Thus, when some­thing is “learned” it is actu­ally just “recalled.”

Gov­ern­ment author­i­ties were keep­ing peo­ple in poverty by tax­ing them for some­thing that could be had for free.  This is the way I felt ‘reli­gions’ were work­ing in the world.  Instead of send­ing peo­ple on a path to find their own ‘nest of salt’ that would thaw their own ‘hid­den mem­o­ries’ and ‘hid­den knowl­edge’ — peo­ple of the world were being ‘taxed’ by reli­gious author­i­ties and forced into ‘false beliefs’ sys­tems which in my mind kept peo­ple in poverty.   Dur­ing my mys­ti­cal visions with the divine (through NDE’s and such) this was the ref­er­ence to the ‘poverty’ most ‘spir­i­tual teach­ers’ made a ref­er­ence to.  I found a quote from Jesus derived from an anceint text that cap­tures the heart of it.

But the king­dom «of God» is within you and it is with­out you. «Those who come to know them­selves shall find it, and when you come to know your­selves» then you shall know that you are the Sons of the liv­ing Father. Yet if you do not know your­selves then you are impov­er­ished and you are poverty.”   Source:  Gospel of Thomas #3 

I felt that we were all like Gandhi look­ing for our own ‘nest of salt’ in an effort to thaw out the mem­o­ries for the sake of find­ing our true iden­tity within which led to the ‘free­dom from oppo­si­tion’ from ‘false beliefs’ or the ‘tax­a­tion’ by worldly reli­gious authorities.

When Kurt asked for my obser­va­tion from my study of how I felt peo­ple were being supressed and oppressed by the author­i­ties of the world, the answer was sim­ple in my mind.   Shame through guilt.  If you didn’t believe as you were told to believe — you where ‘doomed to the world’s ver­sion of hell-fire and damna­tion.  I told Kurt,

“My Dad done told me I have been to the other side over a 1000 times. I don’t recall it all the time but mem­o­ries seep up from the uncon­scious from time to time and their is no such thing as a lake of fire on the other side.  Fire is mate­r­ial and the spir­i­tual realm is void of mate­r­ial and phys­i­cal things.  It is a metaphor gone wrong.”  

When I spoke to Kurt in 1986 — there wasn’t as much research on the sub­ject of the near-death expe­ri­ence where peo­ple offer their tes­ti­mon­als through the Inter­net or pub­lished books.  One of the com­mon traits from thou­sands of peo­ple world wide is the ‘visual’ of encoun­ter­ing a ‘light’ brighter than the sun.  (A rapid move­ment toward and/or sud­den immer­sion in a pow­er­ful light. Com­mu­ni­ca­tion with the light. Source: Wikipedia.

  • This speck of light was brighter than some­thing that would imme­di­ately blind you. It was brighter than a mil­lion bil­lion car­bon arcs, or welder’s torches, any­thing you can pos­si­bly com­pare it to. It was the bright­est thing I’d ever seen in my life. (Thomas Sawyer)
  •  The light was incred­i­bly bright, like sit­ting in the mid­dle of a light bulb. (Pam Reynolds)
  • While War­mack was in a coma in the hos­pi­tal when he became aware of some­thing “in the back of me, like a beam of light, brighter than the sun, brighter than any light I had ever seen.”
  • As I neared the end of the tun­nel, I saw the most bril­liant yel­low light com­ing toward me. I was begin­ning to feel warm. The nearer the light got, the warmer I felt.  (Beth Hammond)
  • The light burst forth before me, fill­ing every­thing with bright­ness, and I was com­ing upon it impos­si­bly fast. Oh, my gosh, I thought, it’s brighter than the sun.  (RaNelle Wal­lace)
  • Ahead the light became brighter and brighter until it over­took the dark­ness and left me stand­ing in a par­adise of bril­liant light. (Dan­nion Brinkley)
  • I trav­eled very slowly along a tun­nel toward a bright light, and I could feel an over­whelm­ing sense of warmth and peace and whiteness.(Helen)
  • The light was brighter than hun­dreds of suns, but didn’t hurt her eyes. She had never seen any­thing as lumi­nous or as golden as this light, and she imme­di­ately under­stood it was entirely com­posed of love, all directed at her. (Kim­berly Clark Sharp)
  • My first visual mem­ory was look­ing for­ward and see­ing a bril­liant bright light, almost like look­ing directly at the sun.” (Robin Michelle Halberdier) 

Light is life in a vehi­cle of divin­ity, and might be thought of as an expres­sion of the One. We stand at the cen­ter of our own cre­ation because at the cen­ter is the sun and the light of the One. We exist as a pre­or­dained Idea man­i­fest within the Self. As an image of the One, so is the One an image of us; our minds man­i­fest through the phys­i­cal body as the One man­i­fests through the body of the sun. Life is a solar idea. Carl Jung

I told Kurt about my own immer­sion into the light and how I felt the worldly minds had turned it upside down and inside out.  I told him how I felt it was like wak­ing up in the morn­ing when you opened your eyes after being lost in the dark­ness of one’s own dreams for the night.  When you opened your eyes in the morn­ing — it took time to adjust to the phys­i­cal light of the world.  I told Kurt it was the same thing on the other side.  It was like wak­ing up after a long sleep.  (See: Gospel of Truth 26–27 ) I felt many peo­ple asso­ci­ated ‘clouds’ with heaven where I asso­ci­ated clouds with damp, dark, cold and wet.  This would be the ‘dark realm’ or what many would con­sider ‘hell.  ‘Heaven’ (on the other hand in my mind after my near-death episode) was a realm filled with warmth and intense light brighter than any fire in the world — includ­ing the sur­face of the hottest thing in our known world — the sun itself.

This was the con­ver­sa­tion Kurt and I shared in 1986 where the ‘slang’ usage of ‘nest of salt’ came into play.

One Response so far.

  1. Isabella says:

    Cobainia.com is another great place to get info on Kurt and Nirvana!


 

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